Graf #15-Meta Graf

                                                What to write about...hmmmmm. Sometimes, I think to much into a subject and then my brain goes blank. How hard is it to pick a subject anyways. Well, I can tell you that I have a paper and pen on my bedstand in case of those late night thoughts. It may sound corny, but it does help. Sometimes, after I have written my grafs, I still have "after thoughts". But when I go in to revise it, Damn! Jon has already been in there. I have to say that I work with alot of my memories and feelings, trying to distinguish the reasons of why or how I feel about something. It brings out alot of emotions in me and it helps bring out some of the words and discriptions. Maybe it's the "older, sappier" me. The most recent activities in my life had made it easier to write about, too. That's why I decided to write about something that I had been having issues with. Not that I look out to make people think that I am depressed, but I thought that if I wrote them down I could realize something that I already knew. You know when you think quietly to yourself about something, it seems or sounds different then when you read it or write it down. Like a movie verses a book. In a sense, it was answering my own question or at least clarifying them.